Recently I was having a conversation with someone about the concepts of Grace and Redemption. In the faith that I was raised in, those concepts existed for those who joined and chose to leave the "sinful" world behind. Grace was that threshold that you crossed into becoming a member and believer.
But once you were in, there were only extremes: there was Perfection or there was irredeemable damnation. For those of us who were born or raised within that faith, it became this pendulum that would swing between elation and toxic shame. We strove for perfection, and when we felt that we were on the path, we felt accepted and loved. But when we strayed or showed signs of weakness, we were overcome with feelings of worthlessness or shame.
In later years, after I had left the faith, the church introduced "restoration workshops" where you could pay to have grace bestowed upon you and your soul would not be confined to the lowest realms of hell.
I criticized the practice as being akin to selling indulgences, but it has only been recently that I've really begun to examine how important the concept of Grace is. Whether you experience it in a faith, or within personal relationship a different concept of the divine, or just in your understanding and love for yourself, it is such an important part of our growth. Loving ourselves, forgiving our past mistaking, and understanding that we have worth despite our missteps are all crucial.
So originally I wanted to create an image that spoke to the irredeemable state of being that my childhood faith taught of. But the more I worked the image, the less it became about an outside authority withholding redemption and the more it became about finding your own personal definition and qualities of Grace within. "Redemption" Fine Art by Jen KiabaClick to Purchase a Limited Edition Fine Art Print.
I struggled with this image because it's very different than what I've been doing lately. It doesn't fit comfortably into my current body of work. (It's certainly not as dark and angsty as I'm used to.)
Did that Post Hit the Spot? Sign Up for More Essays and Art Like This!
* indicates required
One thing that strikes me about this post is the implied restlessness of the subject. Here she's as high as she can possibly go, and instead of looking outward to the clouds, upward to the sky, or over at the birds, her thought is about climbing back down again. Then what? Climb another? I'd say she's looking down at the earth, but I don't feel like the clouds are parted, more like she's note quite certain about her path back down.
Former member well they tried. Left my Swedish husband whom I loved ..I think the title to this pic is Amazing Grace.I hope u have heard the song..stay strong
No comments posted.
Recent PostsNew Fine Art Work: Exploring the Abyss Wishes for 2016 Things that come in the Mail: The Power of Your Voice A Step in the Journey - Critical Mass 2015 New Work: Where the Nightmares Sleep Photoshop Tutorial: Creating Grunge & Texture Receipes Photoshop Tutorial: Removing Textures Using Photoshop Layer Masks & Custom Healing Brushes (Part 2) Photoshop Tutorial: Using Textures to Enhance Your Portraits and Fine Art (Part 1) A Gift: Free High-Res Grunge Textures for Photoshop Crack Me Open: Vulnerability & the Creative Process